I woke up this morning filled with regret. I hurt the person I love the most yesterday. I don't want him to feel hurt and I hate the feeling I have that goes along with my guilt. I began praying that my energy would be refocused on honoring the Lord through the way I treat others. I can honestly say that I felt much more calm to begin the day. I was praying that I would have a gentle spirit and find joy in the moments.
Throughout the day, we had a few challenges with children not listening. One in particular totally frustrated me. I do not like to see someone intentionally frustrate another person. It happened today. One of my kids was teasing me, but took it past a line that was wrong and that child knew it. I didn't raise my voice! I didn't even talk down to him. I remained calm! I know it seems small, but I NEEDED this to stop and accomplished it in the proper way. I want my kids to know where the line is and I know it is tough to navigate healthy teasing. I usually would have justified my yelling on needing to make sure this was not done to a sibling or friend. However, God is continually showing me that my own behavior only escalates things.
On a more positive note, my hubby and I got to go on a date. My mother in law was in from out of town and offered to watch our crew. We only go out about once a year, so the timing after our rough day was a huge blessing!
God is working on me! I am thankful for it!
